Thursday, December 3, 2009

This is only verse one.

Yeah, so really I just made this because I need somewhere to vent to. Ever get that feeling that no one's there to talk to? I'm sure you have. I mean, who hasn't?
Well, there's the littlest things that get to me a lot. It's stupid when you watch a show, and you'll see someone start talking about how amazing their mother was before she died, and whatnot. (You get what I'm saying, right?)
Then, though, it gets to me that my mom died over 2 years ago. Pathetic, huh? I start crying like a little baby, and I hate it!
It's really hard, though. Being a 14 year old girl without a mom. It's not like I can go to my dad and tell him what's on my mind. I can't go to him and talk about how a boy broke my heart, or anything else that you're supposed to discuss with your mom. It's just uncomfortable, weird, and awkward afterwards.
It's really tough just living without her, too. I get depressed even when I'll go to eat dinner some times! Knowing that there's supposed to be an extra plate sitting next to me. Living with two guys just sucks. I'm not going to lie. Especially when one of them is really annoying, and the other tries to pry into your life. I can't talk to anyone here, and it drives me crazy. My friends don't care enough about me to ask me what's wrong, and no one in my family cares either, I'm positive. I can't talk to teachers because of my trust issues (which is weird, because I'm telling all of you about myself and I don't know a single soul out there.).
You know what else I hate? When you hear your friend -- or anyone -- say something like "God, I hate my mom." just because her mom wouldn't let her go out or something. Or sometimes when people complain and complain about stupid things that their mom did, when really, all she's doing is what's best for them.
I'd trade them places any day.